Tuesday, July 10, 2012

A Broken Dream...That isn't so Broken



Every girl has dreams. Every girl has fantasies. Every girl has wants and desires.


 Four years ago, I was a 15 year old girl who wanted to travel across the world and do missions to help orphans, the famished and the homeless. 


Two Years ago, I was a 17 year old girl who wanted to grow up, marry a youth pastor and impact the youth of America. 

One year ago, I was a 18 year old high-school graduate who wanted to travel America, and preach the gospel of Christ through music and the word.

Four weeks ago, I turned 19. 

I was a 19 year old girl who was depressed and lost. A 19 year old girl who had so many dreams and fantasies to do big things. A 19 year old girl who was offered internships across the US, Missions trips across the world and coaching sports in my home town. I was the 19 year old Girl that had ALL THOSE DREAMS door....Closed. I didnt understand. I felt all alone.
It was then that I got on my face and gave it ALL to God. I became, Christ made me content with where he had me when handed it all over to him.




I believe when you finally let go and hand things over to God, He will then lead and guide.

HE DID.

I have a purpose that seems so small. petty.
A purpose that I thought was once VERY insignificant.
I have a purpose to serve God with where I am - not where I go.


how?


 - God gave me 6 sisters under me that I need to live out Christ as an EXAMPLE for. That is a HUGE role that I once viewed so small and not very purposeful. Something he is Really challenging me with. I ALWAYS wanted a sister that I could look up to, mimic and follow. I want to be that for my sisters. A girl that they dont look at to be a "robotic Christian" but a Girl they see Joy, Faith and Christ in.


 - My life is for service. I need to Constantly be pouring my time and resources into my family and the people around me. I honestly feel that If I am not giving everything I have, all my time and energy, into serving, then I am being Lazy and apathetic. (This is a PERSONAL conviction). If I can't do it now, where I am, how will I do it anywhere else?


 - I am constantly looking for, and praying for, a MAN that lives up to the standards God has laid on my heart. I have to be a woman that will be suitable for this man. I need to devote more of my time to training to be that kind of woman and learning the things I would need to know as a spouse and possible future mother. I can for sure say that I lack in the area or "house-wife" skills. 
But I am learning. Christ is teaching me. Watching and listening is teaching me. My mom is teaching me.


 - I have a TON of spiritual Maturing to do. I can never settle with where I am. I need to constantly PRESS HARDER!


 - God has given me a burden for the young girls in my area and I need to act on that burden. He has given me/ blessed me with, spiritual wisdom in CERTAIN areas, I feel it is my job to share that or use that.



I have struggled so much with where God has called me to go and Find ministry or intern somewhere or go to a college. 
O
whether God has called me to stay where I am, learn and grow where I need to and wait for God to bring me a spouse or a ministry.

I have got a lot of faith in my God. 

Cant say I'm not doing any dreaming about what my life will look like a year from now because it is and will be completely Gods and where he wants me, 

Take Courage and seek Brothers, sisters. God will act and LEAD when you are ALL his and ready for him to lead IN HIS perfect timing.
Give it all to the HOLY ONE.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

...Biblical Woman.....

Often times I find myself fantasizing, if that's even a good word for it, to my mom on what kinda wife or mom I will be someday. 

Her opinion and mine never quit match up. As silly as that sounds. haha. 

Sometimes She says I will be an irresponsible mother, I always have to remind her that mother hood is years down the road for me, and plus, with a mom like her, I can always send my kids to her for their "Fix-Ups" ;)

 Then she tells me that marriage life is something you learn as your married, and then, something I have heard from many woman, marriage is "Harder then you think" 

Quite frankly, I believe that its hard, I mean how can dying to self and living sacrificially for another be..."Easy." Well, Something I DO KNOW is God knows the desires of my heart as far as 'How I wanna conduct myself and what kind wife and mother I desire to be' And, I believe if i continue to seek him, he will fulfill that and make that marriage life "easy and Enjoyable" :)

You see, I was reading through the new testament and I came to Titus 2. Ahh yes, You all now know where I am going with this blog. 
Basically I have many many thought on the passage and even listened to a sermon on it just the other  night. Therefore, I just have to share my thoughts and challenge the older woman with WHO they Biblically NEED to and are SUPPOSED to be. Challenge the younger woman/girls...*ahem* me, With what we need to be, and challenge the men (if I have any male readers) of what kind of wife you should look for....A biblical one. As seen below.

Now I feel kinda weird writing a blog on this saying I am Not an "Older woman", I am not married, or even in a relationship for that matter, and i am not a man looking for a wife, But, I do feel everything God has taught me and is showing me is biblical and really cool, hence, me sharing. :)


Titus 2:  Likewise, teach the older women to be reverent in the way they live, not to be slanderers or addicted to much wine,but to teach what is good. Then they can Train the younger women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at hometo be kind, and to be submissive to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God.



Likewise, teach the older women to be reverent in the way they live, 
What is reverence? 
     Reverence is being Appropriate. A reverent Woman has a Meek and quiet spirit. Now This does not mean she has no personality, because, quite frankly, if that's what It meant, I would have a TON of work to do. It is more referring to an Under-control, wise, personality. A Reverent woman does not draw attention to herself. This is not just referring to dress but also refers to words and actions. 

However, A woman dresses the way she feels clearly shows what she thinks is most important thing about herself.

A Reverent woman Conduct ones self in a way that brings God honor, Not self satisfaction. She also Conducts self with understanding of Gods KNOWING and ALL SEEING presence.

teach what is good.
   The woman is the primary instructor. A Woman not committed to teaching IN HOME isn't valuable. Children need hands on Education and DISCIPLESHIP. Now I dont think this is stating the fact that "If you aren't homeschooling, Your not a good mom". I Do believe tho that God clearly states that "A child should be brought up in the way that he should go." and what better way to show them then by schooling them on your own, building character, relationships and discipleship.


love their husbands and children With an AGAPE, Christ like, sacrificial Love.
Love is an act of the will accompanied by action on behalf of its object.
 - Voddie Bauchman

Selfcontroled - Again, Reverence. 

Pure- Purity is not " not sexually "taking it all the way"" Purity is an action, thought, The way you live and carry ones self. The way you show feelings and emotion. 
Live in a blameless way.

Busy at Home...No priority supersedes her priority of home. Home is her "place to work". Her job is to Shape WORLD CHANGERS.
If a Woman does her role, man can do his to full potential then together raise and grow AS MANY ARROWS to Gods Glory. - Voddie

This War is real and God isn't saying "have an "American family" (1 girl for her, 1 guy for him) "Give me as Little ammunition as you can". No, He wants a  HUGE army and he wants them sharp and well trained == discipleship.

Kind and Submissive - 
A woman has a hard time with submission to her husband because of two things. 
1- Pride, and 2- lack of Submission is how our culture was raised. 

Woman, in this generation, were raised like men who are biologically capable to have children. They conduct themselves like men, Loud, Inappropriate, through their conduct and dress, un-submissive, having to care for self and work way to the TOP. 
- Voddie Bauchman

God has so much to say about what A BIBLICAL woman of Himself really is. Not only "looks like" but truly "IS." 

I pray Older woman in the church will live in this way and also "Teach younger Woman (me) TO BE..." 
I want to SEE what it looks like and be Taught how to do it. 

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Being Different Made a Difference.


"Everyone is different." 
Boy, what a pretty obvious quote. I mean, it doesn't take a rocket scientist to go to work, school, or the grocery store to realize this statement is true. Everyone is very different in their own, unique, special way.
While growing up, different aspects of my life lead to me desiring to be very different then those around me. I tried really hard to stand out. I desired to be "liked" by certain people, to be "known for something", and to "be good at this or that." 

No longer do I think as a child. I have put childish things away and now think with a spirit of maturity given by God. 

Now, don't get me wrong, I do still desire to be different, Very different. But not in the selfish foolish ways I used to. I desire to be a Woman of God. That, my friend, sadly, is very different from a lot of people I know. Something I desire to be with all my heart.
Often when I am kneeling before my God in prayer, I find myself praying something that sounds all to similar to my last prayer and those prayers before. I kinda find myself in a pleading sense.  
I am Desperate.
What am I desperate for? To be a Woman of God. 
 Never once did I ever think God would have enough Grace and Love to get me to the point that I was desperate to be A woman of God, A woman flooded with his spirit. 

Because of this Desire I have prayed a great deal more. I have sought a Great deal harder. - And God has revealed something to me. Instead of wanting to be a Woman of God and...That's it. It ending there, at it being just a mere desire, I Try as hard As I can to achieve it, grasp it, fight for it.
I am doing that very thing. I Have written up a resolve for my life. I resolve to fight for Christs Spirit, a Resolve to be different - and through being different, Make a difference!
Here is my Resolve...


I Sarah Kathryn McCarthy do solemnly resolve before God, My family, and Friends that....

- I will  embrace my current season of life and live with a spirit of contentment. 
- I will live as a woman answerable to God and Faithful to his word.
- I will be quick to listen, slow to speak and esteem others more highly then myself.
- I will be faithfully patient to my Lord in waiting for my future spouse.
- I will forgive those who have wronged me and reconcile with those I have wronged.
- I will not tolerate evil influences in myself or my home, but will embrace a life of purity.
- I will pursue justice, love mercy and extend compassion toward others.
- I will not dwell on negatives, but instead be driven off the positives and the joy brought with them.
- I will commit myself to learning "skills" that can help me impact his kingdom.
- I will make today's decisions with tomorrows impact in mind.


In no way is this going to be easy. 
In no way could I, a wretched person, even be able to desire these things.
In no way could I know what this will look like.

BUT

God has given us a Spirit of Hope.
God said he is faithful to finish the good work he has started in us.
God said he will lead us and never leave us. 
God said that I can do all things through him that gives me strength.
God is good.

I am willing to fight the world, AND MY FLESH, to be able to attain these God given Characteristics. 

Take a challenge my friends, Hold me accountable to these things. Challenge me. Encourage me.
Then, Get on your face before your God and ask him what he wants to change in you. Make your own "Resolve to change". Then, take Faith!

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Dear Mommy....



Mothers Day ....

     -That one day of the Year that Moms are shown the true appreciation they deserve. 
     -The one time a year that every kid get out a piece of paper and writes a letter to ‘The Best Mom       
           In the World’.
     - That one time a year that teens give their mom a hug. 
     -That one time a year that Adults call their mom or even tell them that they love them.

Not this year for me.

I think that a true appreciation for ones mom comes from maturity with age and understanding. I can honestly say that I have ALWAYS Loved my mom and really appreciated her, but not till this past year have I realized how much I really appreciate her how much she means to me.


Let me introduce to you my mom…

My Mom has a daily sacrificial attitude. – She constantly is sacrificing her time and desires to mother, care for, love, and raise her 10 children up in the way of the Lord. This is something I wish to one day attain, That, I know for a fact, I don’t have right now – One full day of babysitting all the kids is enough for me, It’s a lifestyle for her.
My Mom loves the Lord her God with all her heart, soul, mind and strength. – and evidently shows and shares it with her family. She takes her ‘Get ready for the day time’ to sing, pray and teach them in the word before anything else.
My Mom has laid down her life. – Just like Jesus gave his whole life time to teach the disciples and people, My mom is giving her whole life as a sacrifice to the Lord to raise little Christ like followers. Her kids are her ministry field. -She is training little warriors to go out and fight the battle for the Lord.
My Mom has taught me how to be a pure and blameless Woman of God. – God has taught me more this past year then through my whole life, and my mom was always there to encourage me, remind me of Gods promises and give me someone to hug. She has taught me, and all the better, SHOWN ME, what It looks like to Love, follow and Lead like a woman of God.
My Mom is one Hot Babe. – C’mon, She has had 10 kids and could pass as my sister. haha ;)
My Mom has a passion to minister and encourage the lost, burdened and single moms of Today.
My Mom is the kind of mom that I can only wish to ever be. - Her patience, Love, Sacrifice and the Christ in her inspires me to be the best mom I can be one day. – and not to be just a Good mom who does what she thinks it best for her kids and gives them what they want, but a mom that will be willing to ‘be the bad guy’ to help them learn what they need to.

I cannot write any or all of this about my mom and leave out one HUGE fact about her... I know she would be devastated beyond all belief if I wrote all this about her and left this very one thing out. – My mom is who she is and does what she does, because of Christ. Christ lives and dwells in her. By no means could she ever desire to have 10 kids, to have the patience to raise them or the Love to love them.  Our God, Jesus Christ, flows out of her and controls her.

 My mom is who she is Because Of Christ.

Dear Mom,
I want to wish you an EVER so happy mother’s day! I have reason to believe that you’re getting a lot more loving this mother’s day  then a lot of other moms, I mean come on, there are a lot more of us to love you. ;) Do Know, that even though I have been cursed with the lacking the actions it takes to really showing how I feel sometimes, I do love you, very, very much.  I look up to you as a mother, friend, and role- model. Keep letting the Lord do his mighty works through you and never get discouraged or give up.
Your Daughter,
Sarah
 p.s - I Picked you some of your favorite flowers. :)





Check out her Blog at www.septembermccarthy.com. J

Sunday, April 15, 2012

The “Radical” “Dater"




I found myself sitting at a table all wide eyed. My chin is resting on my hands and a smile is across my face waiting in anticipation for the next part of the story. A young couple telling me how they met. The ins and outs and what led to them meeting. Sometimes it’s a blind date, sometimes it’s through friends. All sorts of stories cross my path.
Joy then flows out of them as they look at each other, deeply in love, telling me about their glorious wedding day. They cover every last detail, from the excitement that hit them their wedding day morning, to the scent of the flowers, the color of the wedding and the thoughts that fled their mind as they stood in front of all their friends and family, vowing themselves to each other.

“This was by far the BEST (as they each overly emphasized this word) day of my life” This was something they would all say.

All the sudden the mood starts to change as I ask them about their past, If they were in relationships before?.. or if they did anything they regret and wish they could change? So often, an awkward mellowness floods the room as they share their past with me. Never once have I met someone who, when I asked this, said that they wish had they dated and slept around with more people. This is something they (many different couples) look back at their past and regret. Words that tend to leave their mouth… “I wish I would have never dated” or “I wish I waited for my future spouse” or “Why Did I give away my heart and time on them”, “ My marriage could be so much stronger and more beautiful if I didn’t have all that baggage”

The truth that was already made real to me was confirmed...we get one chance to find that person to spend the rest of our life with… We can’t mess it up because of our desires or impatience.
I also learned that the closest thing the in bible to dating was prostitution. True fact.
So often we convince ourselves that there is no one out there that will have this view, so we don’t take hold of it ourselves. Guess what? That’s a lie, God has that person already picked out and when they have this same view, it will help raise your expectations to the next level….and pick them out of the crowd.

Want some Hope? Read about the first Love story and how God worked it out. Genesis 2

Vs. 18- “It is not good that the man should be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him”

Now, this verse is speaking of man, but I believe it applies to both man and women. The point I got out of this is …God does not expect you to live life alone- He did not make you to live life alone.
But God didn't just see that man was alone and know that he needed a helper and then not do anything about it. We serve a God far too great for that.

Vs. 21- “So the Lord God caused a deep sleep to fall upon the man and while he slept took one of his ribs and closed up the place in the flesh.”

There are a few KEY things you can take out of this verse.
You. You are dreaming of that special person. You have expectations and characteristics you expect to see. You may merely dream about them while you sleep. You could almost look at Adam doing this same thing. While he was in a DEEP sleep and could have very well been dreaming of that “special someone” God promised him. God was creating his future wife. He was forming her, working out Adams desires….While he was sleeping.
Another key point to get out of this is that- Eve was made from Adams Rib. Adam was not in his entirety without her. Same thing goes for you. You will not be in your entirety till you meet this ONE special person and are made one (marriage). Why try to find that other part of you when the Lord is merely creating them, and will merely work it out to his Good? Be patient and wait on the Lord.
And Girls – God designed the Man to find you, don’t go out looking.

Vs. 25 – “Man and Women were both naked and were not ashamed.”

Man and women were naked. – Open with each other, honest, up front…And they were not ashamed. Your future spouse is someone you can be open with. Honest with. You don’t need to hide anything from them.

Want to read a Love story about a Man who waited on the Lord to bring him his wife? A man who didn't go out and date all these other girls, A man who had faith and patience in his God and in the End was brought a prized jewel? Read Genesis 24. It talks about Isaac and Rebekah.  AMAZING Love story.

God is faithful.
God has made a promise to you.
God does not tend to leave you alone.
God does not act differently now than he did in the bible, he is never changing. So don’t let yourself think that he can’t still work things out now like he did then. Never lack faith that God will work it out by just being patient and waiting on him.

If you aren’t completely satisfied with being Alone (single) and just relying on your God, You are not ready for a relationship. Complete satisfaction in God comes first. That’s what makes for a healthy, biblical relationship….The foundation.


Young kids- If you take on this belief of faith in your God and live a radically different life, You WILL get criticized for it. You will be told that God doesn’t work like that. Be radical. Be different. Be…Biblical. This blog post is not an inspirational speech on dating for you. It is all biblical. Something that is merely impossible to contain or find satisfaction in without a true relationship with the Lord. I am not saying all ‘Believers’ will hold this view, I am saying that the joy and peace that come with this view can’t be understood or granted to one who does not have a personal relationship with the Lord.

A challenge that I took upon myself and I think every reader should as well….
Get a piece of paper…But not any old piece of paper. Get a really nice, special piece of paper. On one side of the paper, write a letter to the Lord. Tell him how in love with him you are. How patiently you are going to wait on him. How you have Faith that He WILL (and he really will) Lead your spouse to you. Then, on the other side of that same piece of paper, write a letter to your future spouse. Tell them how eagerly you await their arrival. How you will (if you really, honestly will) wait for them -to give them the whole package, with your heart and body entirely there, just for them.  Then, save the letter for them and whether the day you get engaged or the night of your wedding, give it to them, Showing your ‘Before meeting them commitment’ and patient, committed Love toward them. It will be a special time.

Then, Pray. - - -Pray for strength, love, and satisfaction from the Lord to fill you and flood you.

Have faith, Brother.
Have faith, Sister.
We serve a BIG God.


Monday, April 9, 2012

Embracing your role of Sisterhood

Ha! I don't even know how I am writing this post. In a way, it seems kind of silly to me. but in other ways, it is something that is sort of a tender spot to my heart.

I feel like my mind wanders at night time. Many things enter and leave, but many things sit and stay and are pondered. The other night, something sat in my mind for hours. It all started around 11 o'clock Friday night. I was trying to get to bed at an early time, but instead, found myself sitting on my floor of my room watching my little sister (ava) sleep.
Memories from childhood flooded my mind. Sure, I am not that old yet, but I still like to think of childhood. ;) 
Memories of my brothers and I going on bike rides, or playing leap frog in swamps. Having rock fights and playing cow boys and Indians, Long nights being naughty and staying up and talking in our cool little room with our race car bed. Oh boy, I can remember it all as if it were yesterday. My brothers and I were the coolest little trio. We had so much fun.

Looking back on all that got me thinking about my life now. How growing up between boys and not having an older sister (or really any sister my age) has molded me into the person I am today. I am not ashamed of the kind of girl I turned into at all. BUT, I remember always wishing I had an older sister. Especially now. I feel as if there are no girls out there that truly understand me for me- its Kind of a lonely feeling.
A question I always would ask God was "Why did you take my big sister from us?"

Thinking about all this hit a really, really tender spot of my heart that I didn't know existed.
I, Sarah, was THAT older sister for 6 other girls, and I was failing. That sister that I always wanted, my little sisters had, and I wasn't even close to the expectations I would have had of my older sister. How ashamed I was.


It's not about me anymore. It's not about what kind of life I WANT to live. It's not about what I like. Its about what I am supposed to do.
Sure, I may not like painting my nails or going to girly concerts, BUT, that is my job as a sister. Deny myself and BE THERE FOR THEM. Show them love. Let them know I care.
Pray for them.
Sing with them.
AND one that hit hard - Do devotions with them.
I can live out my faith and they can watch, but that personal level is what will change it and make it real to them.
 Stop trying to be their friend and start being their sister.

They need you. and quite frankly, They want you. Even if they don't say it or show it.


I don't want to be a 'Good sister' I want to be a great one!

Meet my sisters











Wednesday, April 4, 2012

The Valley of Desperation


The clock read 12:53....
The night air was cold, the moon was shining ,and the stars were twinkling. I was all alone. My family all lie asleep in their beds as I sat there....on the roof.
My roof is my place of peace. I go there when I am happy. When I am sad. When I am seeking. And, I often I find myself there when I am finding.
Quite frankly, this time, I found myself...depressed. Kinda worthless.
I found myself..... in the valley of Desperation. 


 Each of us come from many walks of life. We have many different things taking place and happening in our lives. Sometimes, things no one else can understand, no matter how hard they try. But, tho we all have such different circumstances, for each one of us, God's Children, He wants to get us to the top of the highest mountain. You see, We will have to climb many mountains to get there. There will be a lot of seeking and a lot of things will happen that we aren't expecting. We climb these mountains by faith. 
But then, Sometimes we go through valleys. Valleys that prepare us to climb the mountain ahead. Valleys that seem dry and weary. Valleys filled with fog. A thick cloud we cant see through. You don't know how long the valley is or when you will reach the mountain. You can't see your next step. You can't see through the fog. Yet, You have faith that your father is right there next to you, leading you.
He is.

  
  "I will never leave you or forsake you" (Heb 13:5)


As I sit there, on my roof, I begin to feel tears trickling down my face. I look up into the heavens just calling out to my God. So many things left my mouth...
"Lord, Why have you left me here alone?"
" I have such a willing and eager heart to serve you, why do you keep closing all my doors?"
"You say that the Joy you give us is your strength, Where is my strength Lord?"
"Lord, I know you have a plan for my life. This cannot be it"



I begin to listen to these words leaving my mouth. Tears flow from my eyes even faster. Why am I not content and faithful with where I am? What are you trying to teach me"prepare me for" for climbing that next mountain ahead? 

Words began flowing from my mouth again. Words much different from the first. Words with a beautiful melody. Words that I learned as a small child and often looked past the meaning of them... Words like these....

"My God is so good. God is so good. God is so good, He's so good to me.
He Loves me so. He loves me so. He loves me so, cuz He's so good to me.
He cares for me. He cares for me. He cares for me, cuz He's so good to me."

During these times, I sometimes struggle to remember God’s promise to me and you.  And yet that is exactly what faith calls for and requires.  It is easy to hold on and celebrate God’s plans when the picture to the natural man looks rosy and wonderful.  It is faith to look for the light even through those valleys of Desperation.  It is faith to say and hold to saying and choosing to the Father when he says to me and to you: “

I know the plans I have for you,

declares the Lord,

plans to prosper you and not to harm you,

plans to give you hope and a future.

Lord, I believe – Help my unbelief

""Lead me in your way everlasting."(Pslam 139:24) Lead me through this valley and prepare me for the mountain ahead"

Saturday, March 31, 2012

Will he spit me out?

To The church of Leodicea AMERICA.....


"I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth. You say, ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.’ But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked. I counsel you to buy from me gold refined in the fire, so you can become rich; and white clothes to wear, so you can cover your shameful nakedness; and salve to put on your eyes, so you can see."


These words are found in Revelations 3. The Lord is speaking to the Church of Laodicea. The CHURCH THAT IS LUKEWARM.


Christians, Gods people, are the church.
Often, some of us get wrapped up thinking that the little building that we put so much time and effort into- that is the church. 


This blog I am writing is about something that makes my heart ache. Something that many people can take as offensive and directed toward them. Quite frankly, this blog is directed toward no one. Many, I know for a fact, will think I am writing this about and because of our latest church experience and leaving our church. I want to clarify and make a statement that this has nothing to do with that. Tho, through that, and before that, God opened my eyes to all this. This blog, I feel, can be directed to ALL churches in this area. I am merely writing to allow us to think, really think, about what we are really doing...as the Church of Christ. 


I go to church every Sunday. Sometimes, I even crawl out of my bed, that much earlier, just to make it to Sunday school. Worship, that was different. We would all kinda stand, hold this book in our hand and sing the words on the page. I never really though about or reflected on what it was saying. I was to worried about not putting my hands up or closing my eyes (through worshiping) I didn't want to be a distraction to anyone. 
Yup, I go to church on Sunday night too, I am one of the very few people that do. Then, of course, Wednesday comes around. I used to go to Youth group. The games and food were my favorite part. Then, We had this 20 minutes challenge on stuff that we all already knew. Then when that was over, we would go to Prayer meeting. I would feel so spiritual, Because I would constantly place myself in a group of older people and try to make up this long, drawn out prayer, over the few things on a list we HAD to pray for. About 10 minutes later, Our corporate, (empty) time prayer was over. 


^That, That is how I looked at the Church a year ago.My heart was not right in anything I was doing. Only by Gods mercy, was this all changed. Now, Church was empty, it wasn't about going through the motions anymore. I WANTED to go to church and feel the spirit there. I LONGED to be more refreshed, through being with other believers, -more then I did in my personal time with the Lord. When you go to church, aren't you supposed to feel EXTREMELY REFRESHED with the unity and fellowship with other believers. 
The Spirit was so far gone. WE WERE MISSING OUT. 
I then read this passage, in Revelations. The Church, and I feel like all the churches around, were so, LUKEWARM. God only wanted to spit us out of his mouth. and I Thought we were on fire for the Lord?!?
Would our community say that? Could people see it in our life once we left church? Was the Spirit really there? (After all, The spirit is what he left us)


These are all things that Really, really hit hard with me. 
Now, Let me clarify something before I continue. I do not look back and think the people who's eyes are blinded to Gods true GIFT, POWER, To our LUKEWARMNESS, - that they aren't saved. By no means. I merely feel like we have PUT GOD IN A BOX and are missing out on all he has in store for us. 


" Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me."


Ahh, Isn't that amazing. The Lord, is standing there...Knocking. Wanting to come in and bless us with all he has in store for us. Instead, we merely CRACK OPEN THE DOOR> only letting in what we want. Why can't we just OPEN the door and let him come in?
 Imagine the Joy that would penetrate our souls. The fellowship we could experience with each other.
Shouldn't we be Praying over each other? Rebuking each other and the strongholds of our lives? Shouldn't we be praying for hours (which seems like minutes) just asking him to penetrate our souls and fill us with his spirit? Shouldn't we leave church feeling so close to God, YET, so far, because we realize how wretched we really are? Shouldn't we be Seeking in the most intimate way ever. Having out Soul LONG and THIRST after him. 
Why aren't we real with each other? and why do we judge those who are?


We, the church, are in a battle. A battle for his kingdom.
If God has opened your eyes to this lukewarmness that penetrates our churches (the people) Then praise him, he has done a good work in you, nothing to boast about. I know personally, I still look at my life and see so much apathy and lukewarmness. 
We need to take those people in the back of the line of battle and disciple them, pray for them and bring them up to the front to battle for his kingdom. 

God has so much in store for us. Open your heart and mind to letting him show you. Open the Door, all the way, and Let him come in. 

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

A Living Sacrifice


""What does it mean to be a living sacrifice?"

 In Romans 12:1; Paul says, “I beseech you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God to present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, pleasing to God, which is your reasonable service.Paul’s admonition to the believers in Rome was to sacrifice themselves to God, not as a sacrifice on the altar, but as a living sacrifice. 
The dictionary defines sacrifice as “anything consecrated and offered to God.” 
As believers, how do we consecrate and offer ourselves to God as a living sacrifice?



What does a living sacrifice look like in the practical sense? 
The following verse (Romans 12:2) helps us to understand. We are a living sacrifice for God by not being conformed to this world. The world is defined for us in 1 John 2:15-16 as the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life. All that the world has to offer can be reduced to these three things. The lust of the flesh includes everything that appeals to our appetites and involves excessive desires for food, drink, sex, and anything else that satisfies physical needs. Lust of the eyes mostly involves materialism, coveting whatever we see that we don’t have and envying those who have what we want. The pride of life is defined by any ambition for that which puffs us up and puts us on the throne of our own lives.

How can believers NOT be conformed to the world?
 By being “transformed by the renewing of our minds.” We do this primarily through the power of God’s Word to transform us. (SEEK)
 We need to hear (Romans 10:17), read (Revelation 1:3), study (Acts 17:11), memorize (Psalm 119:9-11), and meditate on (Psalm 1:2-3) Scripture. The Word of God, ministered in our hearts by the Holy Spirit, is the only power on earth that can transform us from worldliness to true spirituality. In fact, it is all we need to be made “complete, thoroughly equipped for every good work” (2 Timothy 3:16; NKJV). The result is that we will be “able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will” (Romans 12:2b). It is the will of God for every believer to be a living sacrifice for Jesus Christ."

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Layer upon layer - He is tearing them back.

One foot falls in front of the other, the weight of my body presses my bare feet to the cold cement. As I walk up the road, I feel the sun shining on the back of my neck. My backpack, filled with my bible and notes, weighs me down. As I walk, I close my eyes and recite verses that God has put in my mind. I think of how he has blessed me and how he has grown me. I talk to him about my struggles, and then, I realize.....

I started talking to myself.
I feel as if there are many people who do this. I know for a fact that I do this a lot. 
I begin to listen and really think about what I am saying. 
I am sad at what I realize, and quite frankly, sad that I am sad about it. 

I find myself pretending to be two people, I realize I do this often.
I am talking to an "imaginary friend", making up struggles they may be having and then encouraging them. 
I then find myself talking to them about MY OWN struggles and blessing and then I try to encourage myself through this "imaginary friend".  

While thinking about all this, I get pretty sad. 
I think about how I have always LONGED to have a close friend that I can just be there to encourage and have her there to encourage me. Don't get me wrong, I have encouraging friends, just not a friend who knows me for me and that God has put there for that purpose.
This all made me sad.
Why? 
I think because my flesh longs for that "reliance in "someone"'. 
My souls wants to encourage....and be encouraged....all the time.

I then realize, in a way, I am sinning through this.
God put me in the circumstances I am in for a reason, He will use this all to his glory. AND, I don't need someone to 'rely on' when I have God. He is the ultimate encourager anyways.
What ever happened to being content in all circumstances? 

I write this post because God is good. God is slowly peeling back layers to my mind that I didn't know where there. 
God is showing me how I can rely on him in all things.
God is teaching me that he will use everything to his Glory.

If God has blessed you with a friend, a bosom friend, Thank him. Praise him for it. Also remember not to replace God with that friend.
If God hasn't, Thank him. Praise him for it! 



Remember, In EVERYTHING, Give thanks!

Monday, March 19, 2012

Faith and Guidance





"Pst! Sarah, Sarah. Sarah, wake-up. Sarah, I have to go to the bathroom" 

These are the exact words I wake up to every night.


You see, I have a little sister, actually, I have many, but one little sister in particular is very special to me. Her name is Ava. Ava is a cute and precious little girl. She has my personality and adventurous spirit.


 I have the privilege to share a room with this little character. 


This has brought me to much complaining. (God needs to rid me of this)
A pet peeve of mine is having things organized. My bedroom, being the size it is, can not stay that way with Ava and I both in it. 


Lately tho, God has been working at my heart and allowing me to take situations that have usually gotten on my nerves to change me and mold me into who he wants me to be.


Each night, little Ava comes and wakes me up, having to use the bathroom. 


It is dark and she cannot see where to go.


She is scared.


So, I get out of bed, hold her precious little hand, and lead her through the darkness along the path to the bathroom.


The other night, While I was half asleep and leading her through the hall, a comparison came into my mind. a Comparrison that really got me thinking about faith and Gods leading and my complaining.


One thing I thought about was how I need to take things in life that look like, or can seem bothersome or bad, and give it back to the Lord. Honor him in it. see the pros. 


We cannot see what is up ahead, our road is going to be windy and dark.


Quite frankly, the moral of this post is, 
WE NEED GOD.
God will lead us in the way everlasting.
The Lord is our strength.
His word is a lamp to our feet.

Just like Ava asked me, We need to put our pride aside and ask for help. We can't go on the journey alone.


A verse I have been living by so much lately is

"Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart.
Lean not on your own understanding,
but in ALL your ways, look the the Lord
and HE WILL DIRECT your path."

In Mark 11:22, Jesus said, "Have faith in God"



Do you lack faith? The bible says - "ask and it will be given, SEEK and you will find"
Ask for Faith.
Seek to have faith.





This is my Precious little sister with me. :)
We are so fun.
;)


Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Last night, at 8:00 o'clock, in the midst our random acts, I got an idea. I Great Idea.

 My idea - My mom and I make a Vlog for you. So, We set out to do that.
We set down our hula hoops, Picked up my camera and tripod, Found a paper bag and got to work...

Our Subject...Vanity!

Check it out...Just click on this link. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v-9kD6C6jUU&feature=youtu.be


Comment below and let me Know what you think!

Monday, March 5, 2012

Courtship? Dating? What?!?

"I Kissed Dating Goodbye"

This is a book that I have never read. I have recommended and given it to so many friends, but have yet never read it. In a way, this makes me feel hypocritical. To be honest, I am not sure why, it just does.
You see, Growing up, I never had a problem with dating.
I was never in a relationship.
It wasn't even an option in my home.

Growing up my parents would always tell me and my siblings that the first date we would go on would be with our spouse, when married. I always laughed at this.

 I have never really had to worry about this issue of dating.
Through the years I was always eager for this time of life to get here.
The time of life being-Out of high school, ready for a relationship.
Quite frankly, now that I am actually here, I am scared out of my mind.
I don't want to mess this up.

Growing up, never really thinking much about it,and what not, may or may not have been healthy, but most recently I was hanging out with some friends of mine and the topic came up.
What is the purpose of dating? (this I have always held to)
What am I looking for?
When will I be ready?

These are all things we talked about. Things I have always thought about, But never in extreme depth.

Thinking about all of these, I have come to many conclusions. Therefore, I have decided to write a blog on this. You see, Being the age I am, people are starting to show interested in me as a person...I don't blame them, I am pretty cool (totally joking) but this is something that we can't skirt off to the side. We need to face this season of life in a biblical way. 

An ever so godly friend told me the other day....

Don't settle for great. Settle for Godly!

Boy did this get me thinking.
 I can't let my head get wrapped around these "interested people" and loose sight of my purpose and...Godly!
Just realizing the fact that I haven't even quite gotten to talking about what God has been showing me yet and you may be thinking that I am absolutely insane, If that is the case, I encourage you to keep reading, because there is so much juicy stuff below. :)

When thinking about all of this, there are some points that we really need to see, and Believe!

What is the purpose? - To find that person who you will marry.
                                    -Therefore, don't date for a game. There is no short term dating.
                                    - If you wouldn't marry them...Don't date them.

The right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing. -Be patient and wait for Gods leading.

If you have convinced yourself that "They are the one" just wait.-, If it is meant to be.IT WILL Work Out.

Guard your heart- Don't just give it out to anyone, Save it for that special someone that God has instore.

All of this above ties with..... In fact, I feel everything in life will come if you....SEEK THE LORD. 

"Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart.
Lean not on your own understanding.
In ALL YOUR WAYS, look to him,
and HE WILL DIRECT your paths."

Seek the Lord violently and he will show you.

I know for myself, talking with my friends, all of the above, I believe. I live by. I am in no hurry to "find someone to date." I am waiting for the Lord to strike that one.
 But one thing is for sure, by golly, I know what I am looking for.  Biblically. A godly upright man.

A Man of Character.


"Character is what you are in the dark, when noone but God is looking" - Randy Alcorn

     -A man of prayer
     -A man who is a Seeker and leader
     -A man who Loves God, more then He would love me.
     -A man who is unashamed of the gospel
     -A man who is financially wise
     -A man with Agape Love
     -A man with an Attitude...
            _Attitude of humility
            _Attitude of obedience to God
            _Attitude of contentment
            _Attitude of hopefulness

One of my favorite quotes -


"A woman's HEART should be so hidden in GOD that a man has to seek HIM just 
to find her"
-Max Lucado


We can not give up hope that God has that perfect person for us. Seek him and let him lead. 
Don't try to take matters into your hands. 

Maybe he wants you to accept the place you are at in life before he will give you something else.

All I know is, I have faith in my God. If he so desires to bring me that "Knight", "prince", Man, I 
will be there ready to accept that. but, If he doesn't in my timing, and doesn't at all, I will be ready 
to accept that as well.

I encourage you to continue to seek the Lord. 

Psalm 16:11 - Thou wilt show me the path of life.

He doesn't lie, Have faith in that and Seek. 

You Will Find










Thursday, March 1, 2012

A Wake-Up Call!

"Hurry it up, I'm not getting any younger."

This is a phrase I hear people say far to much throughout my day, Especially when I am at work. 
The fact of it is, it is true. We aren't getting younger. Each day we live, is one more day of our life....gone. 
Now, it all depends on how you look at the glass, 'Half full' or 'half empty'. Quite frankly, I look at it half full. So this saying "I am not getting any younger" is very trivial to me. 
A role model in my life would always say "Today is another day closer to Eternity." What a true fact. Every day, every moment and every breath we take, we are getting that much closer to seeing Jesus face to face. I don't know about you, but that gives me goose bumps to think about. 
When thinking about that fact, I mean, really thinking about it, I have to look at my life an question it.

Here is something I always ask myself...
What did I do today that will impact eternity? Did I show a lost soul the Maker within me and his saving grace?, or even do something sacrificial for the Lord?
What are the motives behind what I do? I question myself with this ALL THE TIME. 
I know a lot of the girls i mentor always ask, "whether we eat or drink we have to do it to the honor and glory of the Lord" How am I supposed to do that? 
I believe it all ties back into our motives. Are we eating to satisfy ourselves or to give us the energy to keep serving the Lord. So many things we do through out each day, We need to look at our motives behind them. 

James 1:17- "Every good and perfect thing is from above..." We need to accept the fact that nothing about us is good. Everything that we do, that is truly good, is the Lord doing it through us. We may be a Christian, and an over-all good person in general and just do'good things' all the time.
BUT if we aren't denying our self daily and taking up the cross, the Lord isn't going to work through us to do that and it will be,...overall....worthless.

This life is NOT our own.
We think the World revolves around us. We get so upset by 'that car' that cut us off. We HAVE to have the biggest cookie, OUR needs, OUR wants, OUR desires are always first. That's our flesh.


Why do we waste our life on such petty things? 

Jesus didn't waste his. Aren't we striving to be like him?

Jesus gave up heaven, came down to this earth filled with wretched people, and took the form of a human. He should have been praised, But instead, he sacrificed his whole time here. He was a servant. He washed his disciples feet, He paid the ultimate sacrifice...He died. 
Why are we wasting out lives? I know i waste mine daily. 

Romans 12- Give your life as a sacrifice! (like Christ did) AFTER ALL- this is our reasonable service"
We go to idols so much instead of our Lord. Someone told me an idol is something you will sin to get. I do believe that, but I believe it is more then just something you will sin to get, it is something that takes the place of God. 
I recently deleted my Facebook for 4 months because It was an idol to me. I am not saying this to talk my self up, by no means, I am saying this because we ALL have idols and we need to man up (or Women up) and get rid of them. 
We are here for one purpose and one purpose alone. To serve our God. 
We can't do that with Idols, wrong motives and a fogged view of how soon he is coming back.

I believe the Lord is bringing Revival.....
....and it's going to be big.

Revival is going to hit America like a wave. A tidal wave. Only some will ride the wave out, And others, they will be left holding on to their traditions and un-biblical rules/beliefs. 
We don't want to get lost in this wave.
We want to be so confident that when this wave hits, we WILL be riding it out, and we need to help others get on the wave to. (discipleship!)


My Point- Revival will only come through those who DENY ONESELF, Take up their cross daily, and make them self an open vessle to the Lord to fill up. 
The Lord is going to bring revival through those people.....
,....and I believe A Lot of those people are going to be the youth of America. 
When we look at a lot of youth, our first reaction is no way. I know so many Youth that are seeking God with all their heart. All they want to do is get together and pray and seek. 

Maybe this is just me, But I am sick of adults saying "Boy, its something else to see a kid your age really seeking the Lord." Ha! That may be true in a way, but It would be something else to see more Adults TRULY seeking the Lord, Or anymore for that reason.

There has to be so much more to Christianity then, reading, praying, singing,  Church, and discipleship. I want to experience my God. The God of the Old testament- Who has and will never change.
"Ask and it will be given, Seek and you will find. Knock and the door will be open."

Examine your life..... What are you REALLY living for? What Idols are getting in the way God? Are we willing to be a sacrifice to him?


Friends, ASK for the Lord to give you a driving passion to seek him. (then praise him for it) SEEK him, and you will find him.(Prov. 8:17- Those who seek me, find me) Knock, He will open the door to show you all he has in store for you.